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Confessions of an art freak

My daily blog to sort out the craziness in my head.... here goes nothing.

So here's the Thing... (a post about what really matters)

6/10/2020

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I feel like I'm pulling my hair out.... maybe it's because I am. I'm not quite sure.
But that's okay. This post is not about what I don't have but what I do... 
Okay, now that I've said that, lemme start over. *ahem*

I've never been more stressed in my life!
​Let me take it back to the Beginning...

Since this COVID thing...no. Back further...

My relatives, after three years of dragging me through living in freezing-effing-Michigan, Says,

"This was a terrible idea! We should've NEVER moved up here!

Now, when my relatives, like, say things, in my head I hear a really high, nasal-y, sneering voice like a villain, so just... insert that.
​
Anyways, they're like, We never should o' moved here!" 
An' I was like,  

I could've told you that three years ago!!!

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Photo by Clay Banks on Unsplash
So they leave, and I stay for the sake of my sanity, which only switched me from one type of insanity to another, living completely alone for the first time is a really, really REALLY scary thing... I don't know if you know that.
But still, I was hype that I wouldn't have so much negative energy surrounding me. 
Of course back then, in the good ol' days, no one even thought that COVID was even an issue, let alone a debilitating one.

The number one thing a business needs in order to run is face to face contact. You have to build up a loyalty to drum up business, because they buy your product to support YOU. Unless you're cornered the market, they typically can find something like what you have somewhere else, let's be real. And with physical contact now, as they say, Null and Void, I had to find another way. 
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Photo by Nikita Kachanovsky on Unsplash

Well,

At the time I thought that I was screwed, I mean, what do I do now!? 
Promotions cost money, and I only had a little to work with.

So after a few moments of silence for my, at the time, stillborn business -- and a fifth o' tequila -- I realized that I had it all wrong. 

I shouldn't have been looking at what I don't have, 
Because that's how you create 
MOre of it.

(That's, like, the first rule of the Law of Attraction and manifestation: Energy grows where your focus goes.)

So here's what I'm doing:
I'm still updating my online presence, because it's something I actually have, but what I also have is, (obviously) my new art skills and my book.
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Photo by Abdulmajid Sanusi on Unsplashc
I have a poetry book, by the way. The link is HERE.

And more than wanting to sell it, because it leads me to focus on achieving  what I don't have, and we don't want to go down THAT rabbit hole again. I want to just let as many people people as I can know about it, and even start giveaways and things like that.

now,

I DO have a Kickstarter,
(Note edit from future Amargeaux: I got some really, really, REALLY disappointing news that, long story short, has me starting aaaaaalllllll over again.... for the sixth time.... when each time takes me weeks -- sometimes months -- to finish it once to get it right.... yaaaaay.)
So if my Kickstarter works out, and though I keep getting held up in the editing stage, I'm still confident it will, I'll, at least, be able to raise money to hire a promotion company.
But it's more than just that. It's something I HAVE that I can SHARE.

And that's my point.
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Photo by Amauri Mejía on Unsplash

I have spent

my entire life, since the first time anyone complimented my artwork and started making pipe dreams about what I could do with it as if I wasn't in the room, I was basically taught to live as if the idea of life was to chase after what's missing, just like the rest of the broke people I was surrounded by.

And just like me, they're all still broke and barely getting anywhere, if at all.

I Need A Change.

That's why I'm writing this.
I sort out my wild card, Toontown of a brain when I write things down. So I will be writing about my art career as I go along to help myself, and anyone else who may also be going through it, to stay on track.

Soon, I'm going to some bookstores in town and around the U.P. (That's the Upper Peninsula of Michigan, USA, for you cool cats who don't live here) to see someone about carrying my book. I already know about two places in town, but I want to see if there are any more nearby.

On a more positive piece o' news:

I got a new* van!!!

*New is subjective to perspective,
which includes, but is not limited to
health, personal constitution, age, income,
and/or your belief in God.

It's really cool! It was gutted by someone who used to travel with it, and now it has this cool wooden structure for, like a bed or whatever. 
I know this'll be really useful in the future. For what exactly? I don't know. We'll see.

New updates on my Social media Everyday!!

​Talk Soon!!

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